A Self Realization

Last week after I saw my final grades I was extremely disappointed in myself. Right now my GPA is a 2.33. I haven't had a GPA that low since before my recreation. It makes me wonder if college is really the place for me. It also makes me wonder if English is the right major for me. Unfortunately, I don't think I'm good at much else. If I'm not going to be an English major what else could I be? Possibly Psychology since that's what everyone majors in that isn't good at anything else or have no idea what they want to do with their lives. Have I gotten to a place where that is what I've been reduced to?

BreathingNow

The Sea of Tears

Here is the bad thing about me writing down my life: "The only way to write anything is to get to a point of such desperation that the feelings inside feel trapped and burst forth and suddenly you feel my pain and you live through me and cry through me and sob through me and love through me, and then it is on paper and then you, reader, come and read it, and eat it, you eat my soul and you think nothing of it, you move on in your life but I'm in you. And you move on. I could be a plumber and be free. I could be a clerk in a grocery store and you would never consume me this way."