Dear Mom

Dear Mom,

I think I did fairly well on my test today but we'll see how I really did on Monday. All I hope for is a C since my average is a D right now.

I have officially run out of money today I hope I get a job real soon because I don't know how that's going to work. If I am lucky the company I bough my Japanese Translating Software from will give me a refund it isn't what I wanted. That software is what pushed me to the bottom of my money pit. That is the last time I should look for shortcuts when doing Japanese homework when I'm tired. What I really needed was a dictionary, that would have been satisfactory, maybe even better than a translator.

In one hour I have to call Blackjack for that job. Without money I can't do laundry or mail this letter for that matter. Dad isn't being a real big help, I just need a loan. I f I live much more sparse I won't be able to handle it, college is expensive. I'm always needing something. Yes mom, it's real need. I wish I could use my mean plan cash for school supplies. Luckily, I do have about 70 dollars coming my way because I lent it to someone on the guard. She has a check waiting for me. I am trying to meet up with her before practice so I can put it in my account before the bank closes for the weekend.

I finally called Blackjack today. They'll be hiring soon and take another look at my application (which is in all red, I did apologize for it though). It may not be what I wanted but it isn't Greyhound, which for some reason Dad keeps pushing on me.

After another boring dinner I went to an Anime Fan Club meeting and watched Fullmetal Alchemist, it was an awesome cartoon, right up there with Witch Hunter Robin. Afterwards I had to go to a play for my UDCC class it was primarily Spanish, at least the songs were. The play makes me appreciate the Language more. Often I forget to look at the beauty of it instead of wishing the person in front of me to speak English. When put in that situation anyone can admit that beauty is the last thing on you mind.

During the play also made me wish I could be with Garrett. I text messaged him during the play but with no response. He must have decided to cut me off completely from all contact with him. He says it's hard to have a relationship of any kind with me when I'm so far away, what a selfish thing to say and to act on. For once in my life I honestly love someone more than myself and my motives in life. So I couldn't stay in Grand Junction, or I didn't want to stay....Does it really matter? It would be a great story someday. How love conquered all, conquered the hardest of all obstacles, distance and time. It would be a lasting love above all human knowledge. Life isn't easy so why expect something as complicated as love to be. I didn't ask to fall in love especially right before leaving. Now that I've experienced it I don't want anything else, or anyone else to share that with, but Garrett.

Love,
BreathingNow