A Step Outside

A flash
Mental
Not physical,
A flash...
A flash
Before my eyes.

A trigger,
"Click",
Something clicks...
Mental
Not physical,
Someone pulled
The trigger.

A snap,
Mental,
Not physical
Something inside
Snaps.

I was you
Who pulled the
Trigger,
Caused the flash.
It was my
Self-control
That snapped.

It hangs
By a string
Do you dare
To pull out
The scissors?

Why do I
Let you
Cut me off?!

A change,
A change
In me
I feel it happen.
I know
The exact moment
I slip off
The edge.

After that
I don't remember
Any more.
I was not
Myself.
I do not claim
Those actions
As my own.
You guided me
To kill.

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