Tenacity

For the longest time I have been avoiding the doctor for the pure fact that they don't tell me anything good anymore. You can only ignore things so long before have to acknowledge them. Monday was that day. I just couldn't hold it off anymore. Instead of hearing something along the lines of you have cancer I heard you have carpal tunnel syndrome. When I told my dad he told me to quit colorguard. Want to know what I told him? I said I'd rather not be able to ever button a shirt again than quit right now. Of course he told me I was being dense but I told him what other choice do I have.

I have sacrified the last four years of my life to do what I do. If I quit now what do I have to fill the hole, and quite a big hole at that. What do I do when my passion is my pain? All I can do is live one day at a time and act like it could be my last. The question is...how will I handle my last day. I'll admit that I'm not the best at what I do nor am I the worst, but I could be considered one of the most dedicated. What is dedication without direction though? Lost potential.

Why does everything happen to me?

BreathingNow